Why Me....... Why Me.. thats all that I am thinking today.. why is it that life always enforces on me the second best option although, the best is available.. Why is that I come so close to getting the best and I have to settle being the second best...for no fault of mine.....Why??

What is wrong in my fate.. that I don't know.. what to with my fate.. perhaps.. Life has been documented for me as a struggle by the person sitting up above.. I give my best shot and put my heart and soul in it and hope for rewards to come and just at the moment, when I see it coming.. It goes away.. and I am given something else..

Its like you are promised a Ferrari and given a Toyota instead.. Why is fate playing this game with me.

Why.. Why.. Why me..

I guess every person would have gone through this phase in life when one feels almost invincible.. super confident and feels everything he touches will be gold.. every tasks he does will be success.. every action he takes will be applauded by the whole world..
What can one call this phase... Overconfidence.. Or sheer luck coupled with some tactical brillance
And then there are days.. when you dread to touch anything or stay away from taking responsiblities because deep down one knows he is going to fail..I guess thats what one calls life or is it just a feeling of insecurity that creeps into the human mind that causes one to have the feelings of loss and defeat.. I guess its difficult to say..
I am still trying to figure out.It is hard to analyse the human mind.. I guess...

Its been around 7 yrs since I started my first job and now when I a look back, I wonder how far have I got in my life from where I started or rather have I really moved ahead in my life.. Coming to think about, I have an apartment in Mumbai, a car ,some cash and have been in US and Europe for work and seen it quiet a bit , something that I might not have thought of when I was in college.. But is this what one calls progress..
I am still trying to figure out what will one call success or progress that one has achieved..
How can one quantify success.. How can it be measured..

Someone who doesnt have what I have today may say I am successful but is it a reality ...

I guess its one thing I am going to be thinking for a long time.. ..